I don’t even know where to start, i haven’t been able to get myself to write anything since Shelly passed away, that has been 3 years ago already. Oh how my life has changed in this time. I see things so differently now. Shelly’s passing left an emptiness that no one or nothing else will ever be able to fill. Dr. Has diagnosed me with broken heart syndrome. I never knew that was a real thing before. Life goes on, it will never be the same but we must go on living, even though I must admit that there have been plenty of times that I have thought I couldn’t go on. Some how God has given me the strength I need to make it though each day. I have learned we are given one day at a time, so I take it one day at a time or one step at a time which ever it takes to get though. The next morning, God willing I open my eyes, and am given another new day, a new start to try again.
Last year was not a good year right from the start. On Dec. 5th we made a trip to Hutchinson to visit with Wayne’s sister, Sherry, who was not doing well. On the way home we hit a deer and totaled our car. Then on Dec. 13th, my sister, Jodi fell on the ice and broke her femur. She got home from the hospital on Dec. 21st. January started by having Jodi laid up, then Paige, our great granddaughter, had her adenoids taken out on Jan. On the 12th. Two days later her Mother, our granddaughter got shingles. On the 17 th we had our baby “ dog” Stella spayed. Two days later, on the 19 th, Wayne had his teeth pulled. Then on March, 29 th Wayne’s Uncle Buck passed away. April 3rd, we went to Embarress, Mn. to Bucky’s funeral.
On April 4 th, I got the another shock to my system as I had been in to town for a hair cut. After I stopped up at the cemetery to spend a little time with Shelly. Then stopped over at my Mom’s for a short visit. On my way home as I came around the last curve about 300 yards from our driveway, I came across a lady that had taken her own life. I would never wish that on anyone. I don’t think I will ever be able to get that picture out of my mind. I keep thinking how much Shelly would have loved to be here to watch her granddaughter grow up, and then someone else can take their own life like that, seems to belittle how important life is. Guess it is something I will never understand, she had to be hurting so bad in order to do that, I can’t imagine how troubled she must have been. My heart aches for her family.
On Wed. June 12th, which would have been Shelly and Darby’s 9 th Anniversary, my Aunt, Barbara passed away. She has been poorly for quite awhile. But took an abrupt turn for the worse, she passed away from sepsis. Her funeral was on June 17 th. The following Monday. Darryl and Mary brought their camper out to our place and stayed the wk with us. We had a good time. That Thursday night during the night I got sick, passed out while heaving and fell. Got a real good shiner, and hurt stomach. Darryl and Marry left for home the following morning. The next Thurs. June 27th, I took a turn for the worse and Wayne took me to TRF to Dr. They transferred me by ambulance to Fargo, where they did surgery on me ASAP. I had two perforated ulcers and a tear in my intestines. I was full of infection, an had sepsis. They told me I wouldn’t have made it through the day. I was in the hospital for 2 wks. Got home from the hospital on July 11 th. But had 3 drains coming out of my stomach. Got them out about a month later. Then found out that they found I have an aneurism in a main artery at the entrance to my .
On August 12th, Wayne’s sister Sherry passed away. We went to Hutchinson for her funeral which was 18 & 19 th of Aug. on August 28 th I met with Heart Surgeon, Dr. Tygen, in Fargo. Then on September 17 th, I had surgery to see what they could do with that aneurysm. They had 3 different things they wanted to do, but were only able to do one, which was to place some coils around it to hopefully take some of the pressure of the artery. They were able to find out that I had it in 2014, but no one had caught it. I can thank Dr Vogels, my surgeon for my stomach for finding it. But anyways they can tell just how much it had grown since 2014. They pretty much told me that it is like having a ticking time bomb in there. They lots of time burst at 20 whatever that means, and mine is right there at 20. So I have learned that each and every day I get is truly a gift from God. I am so thankful each day to wake up and open my eyes and realize He has given me one more day.
So last year was really not a good year and now we are in 2020. Uffda! Corona Virus, What can I say. We have been keeping ourselves pretty much quarantined ever since the middle of March. So it has been about 6-7 wks now. Seems longer, we usually don’t mind staying home but when you are told you have to stay home it isn’t as fun. Can think of all kinds of places I would like to go. This wk I have been busy making masks, for family, friends and neighbors. I made 56 of them. Quit now for awhile, have been working on new curtains for kitchen and craft room today.
This evening our granddaughter, Kodie made and delivered supper to us. Her new guy and two little ones and sister Kassandra were with. We had to keep our “social distance” of six feet apart. But got to visit around the campfire for awhile. Was so good to see them all. Oh how I miss being able to hug. It is so hard not to be able to give those little ones some hugs and loving. The supper was delicious, Swedish meatballs, gravy, mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. Very Good. What a precious gift! Speaking of precious gifts, I received another precious gift this week. My neighbor and friend, Carol made me the softest beautiful gnome quilt ever. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. Life is GOOD! Full of precious surprises and moments.
I think by getting people and families to stay home, social distance, God is really bringing families together, they are actually learning how to do things and enjoy things together. Which is a huge Blessing in disguise. I Thank God for this day and my family. He is so Good all the time! We, I know I have said this before but maybe nw that I have broken the ice again, I will get on here more often. Thanks for having patience with me. Love and Hugs for this old gal in the woods. Goodnight and sleep well.🌷💜🌷💜🌷




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